..in this season of my life, it is hard to admit that I am passively committing the great sin of believing that the physical things of this world is what is real.
Bills, income, relationships, my physical appetite, my desires, this body…
The tangible is real. Whatever is invisible seems too difficult of an effort to chase.
If I can’t see it, hear it, or feel it, it’s worth putting off for a while now until I handle these financial, social, physical, emotional problems…
I was reading the word today and was encouraged by this promise in the book of Habakkuk and I hope it encourages you all as well:
Habakkuk 2:4 “..but the righteous shall live by his faith.”
This is God responding to Habakkuk’s complaints during a time evil and injustice roamed freely in the land.
Habakkuk seemed to be yelling toward the sky, ‘Do you not see what’s happening?! I thought you were a God of justice! How could you be so tolerant of this evil! Do you not care!?’
And God says, ‘..the righteous will live by faith.’
He’s saying to Habakkuk, “What you see with your physical eyes is not what I see.
You see evil and destruction as the conclusion of your nation, but I see something else.
I see redemption coming, I see glory, I see justice soon prevailing, I see vengeance dealt to these nations oppressing you..’
This physical world is an illusion. What we can’t see, feel, hear, the invisible is paradoxically the reality.
Sometimes we feel like this depression is what’s real.
This pain in our heart is what’s real.
The financial debt is what’s real.
That break-up, that divorce, that moment when friends become strangers is what’s real.
That sickness, that cancer, that addiction, that struggle is what’s real.
We can be in a room filled with friends with plastic smiles, yet feel this excruciating stab of loneliness in our hearts.
We think the damage done in our relationships with our family or friends is the final chapter.
God says, ‘.. the righteous shall live by faith, not by sight.’
He sees something else… do you?
And look how poignantly this book ends in chapter 3… would you have it end any other way? It is absolutely beautiful in its eloquence. This is Habakkuk’s prayer to God which contrasts starkly to his opening complaint in chapter 1:
I heard and my heart pounded,
my lips quivered at the sound;
decay crept into my bones,
and my legs trembled.
Yet I will wait patiently for the day of calamity
to come on the nation invading us.
Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
One comment to that: Hallelujah.
Despite this ache in my heart, the break in my relationships, or whatever is evident… Help me rejoice in You. Teach me what that unshakable joy is like.
I only see people enjoying the world behind me and the men and women of God in the hall of faith in front of me… and I’ve lost my way in waist-deep waters with no one to the left or right of me.
Won’t You help me during this time? God..
Forgive me, Lord, for idolizing people I looked up to in my life so much to the point that what they actually said about me made me question my own identity.
I’m too “this”
I’m too “that”
Why do you behave like this? Stick with the norm.
Careless words he or she said that probably won’t enter their thoughts ever again will continuously echo in my head when I wake up,
when I’m driving,
when I’m at the gym,
when I’m showering,
when I’m lying in my bed…
Words hurt so much. Please be careful with your words.
I thought this was only something I had to experience in elementary/junior high when I was being bullied.
I never would have thought it would re-appear in my adult life.
“The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.”
You’re either encouraging someone or destroying them.
There is no exaggeration here. This is exactly how it is trying to read that book ahahahha. Moving over to ‘A Grief Observed - C.S. Lewis’ instead. Will come back to this book when I find my brain again
“It’s funny how people perceive you differently when you have suffered catastrophic loss.
They hear you differently because, in their mind, you are more on their level, so to speak.
It’s been said, “Success builds walls while failure builds bridges.”
In other words, you can speak from your difficulties to others and they are reminded that you live in the same world that they do.”
- (Pastor Greg Laurie speaking on losing his oldest son in a car crash)
I have a God where I can pound on his chest asking, “Why?” And He can take it. And that’s good news. God is good news to someone who has had a horrible life. I may have had a horrible earthly father, but I know I have a wonderful heavenly Father.
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